19/07/2009
Caught myself waking up had the vibrations, lay there and I could see through my closed eyes to my left was a man I recognize as my oldest sister’s father (who’s still alive). He looked at me and said “yeah so what I’m drunk!” “Give me a cutch” I ignored him and he went away, next I found myself waking up in a bed the room is what I now recognize as my future room (when my decoration is complete). I get up look at the bed but there is no physical body there. I don’t worry and I realize that I have just ‘woken up’ somewhere else. I get up and then sudden re-entry, no apparent cause but the vibrations are still there and I can still see through my closed eyes. A beautiful women in a red dress floats down to the left of my feet she floats past me apparently not noticing me, (more hypnagogia?). I make the vibrations faster again, next I find myself waking up in another room it’s very elegant I’m in a double bed this time with red silk curtains and red bed sheets the architecture of the room looks Indian, I decide to try floating and flying so I stand at one end of the room and float up and fly to the other side I’m all over the place (like I’m drunk) so I go through an open door there is a spiral staircase like the ones in a palace. I decided to float down them all and that familiar adrenaline rush comes through me, at the bottom of the stairs is a very large room it almost looks like a train station or a grand ballroom, there’s what I perceived as an information desk in the center it has balconies around to top of it and a glass cone glass roof, the entire floor looks like it’s marble and the walls are made of stone. There are lots of people floating around I look up at one of the balconies and hear a women crying she’s saying “why did you have to take them!” I get the sense that it’s something to do with a horse (?), the emotion from her voice is almost too much to bear and I really feel I need leave but I don’t want to, not yet.
I pluck up some courage and I say out loud “is there anyone here who wishes to speak to me?” 2 people walk (float) over they are Asian, possibly Chinese there is a man and a women both aged I guess at 35-40 the man is in a beige suit and the woman is in a Chinese dress which is red with gold detail her hair is in a bun, I get the sense that they are partners they are emitting a very bright white light I can barely see their faces, I’m nervous, the women takes my hands in hers and smiles I feel more comfortable and I feel very happy, so much so that I can’t help smiling. I ask them “is there any message you have for me?” The man smiles and says something about the present and my needs, my eyes light up I know what the message means, I thank them and they float away. It has me frustrated that I remember my entire experience but I can’t remember the most important thing! I even repeated what the man said so I wouldn’t forget it.
I go over to a wall and try to go through it to see if I can figure out where I am but I can’t get through its solid! Also it's cold it actually feels like a real stone wall! Another sudden re-entry the vibrations are still strong so I make them faster again. I appear in a corridor it looks the same as the big room I was just in (same walls and floor) I decide that I want to visit someone I know. I think of an ex-girlfriend that I haven't seen for a while, I travel no less than an inch and there is a dull thump in the center of my chest I’m being blocked! I don’t try again I just trust it’s with good reason. Another re-entry! Vibrations are still there so I speed them up, now I’m at a rock concert the music the band is playing is awesome! The guitar riffs the drums the singer, a perfect band performing a perfect song! Re-entry, Vibrations are considerably weaker now, this time I sense my second body floating above me and as I speed up the vibrations I feel them shooting up towards this body and I am traveling with them, I float straight up and turn over to face myself lying in bed. There’s something I noticed I was in a fairly light relaxation not as heavy as I put myself in maybe I don’t need to push it so far. I then float back down and re-enter I sit up and go downstairs to record these notes.
Something was familiar about this experience I was controlling the vibrations really well, remained very calm and rational. THE PATTERN!! Today is the 19th!! On the 19th of last month I did a one month patterning exercise in which I asked to experience in a month control of the vibrations and to be able to remain perfectly calm and rational. I’m going to try my best to remember what the message was. Also, there was lots of red in this experience.
I was not expecting this to happen at all since last night I had lots of alcohol and didn’t think it was possible to reach the vibratory state after alcohol. Even though it was very possible I still had no control of where I was going but I felt like I was purposely being shown these things by someone.
Where was the train station/ballroom? I find it weird that I’m ‘waking up’ in other beds, there is no sense of movement but it feels like I have just awoken from a nap in that bed. Apart from the last re-entry it didn’t really feel like I was projecting outwards I made no attempt to separate I just made the vibrations faster and then I would wake up in a bed, was I moving inwards? Who were the Chinese couple? Did they know me? More importantly what was the message they had for me? Why was I being stopped from going to my-ex? Do I still have some deep emotional feelings for her? Would I have acted irrationally seeing her again?
I have no doubt that this experience was anything but a dream. For once my left brain is agreeing with me but it still brought up something of interest “you may have been under the influence of the alcohol and the entire thing was a hallucination.” Even though it was at least 8 hours since my last alcoholic drink, it is still possible. A lot of first times were had in this experience, this is, the first time I have felt sorrow, the first time I have met non-physical entities and conversed with them. The first time I have been blocked from going somewhere I desired, the first time I have tried flying and the first time I have perceived light. This is the third major experience I have had this month I am very grateful for all of them and I know that 2 months of practicing every day has defiantly contributed towards it. I can hardly wait for the next journey.
Tuesday 21 July 2009
The confusing experience
13/07/2009
I caught myself waking up again, the vibrations were smooth at first then they disappeared, they came back and they were very strong. They got faster and smoother and I decided to separate and stay in my room. My body floated out chest first and I sat up on the bed and looked at my physical body sleeping there (very eerie), vision was very clear, my goal was to stay in the house and maybe walk through some walls as I don’t think I could take another emotional experience like the last one just yet, I would explode with excitement if I did.
I went to the wall near my wardrobe I saw the pile of clothes at the bottom of it. I put my hand on it and started to push through with a little force I felt my hand go through the wall it took much more force than expected although this is the first time I have done this and I have spent all my life not going through walls. I could feel the coldness of it, the texture of breeze blocks! (Confirmed: asked around and the wall is likely made of those gray airy breeze blocks) then for some reason my vision flipped upside down! So as I pushed the rest of body through I said to myself “fix vision” I came out through the other end and felt the wood of my sisters bed on my legs (the bed looked like my own!?) both beds are in the same place on each side of the wall it may be possible that I had that spherical vision. Next I decided to go downstairs. I thought about dropping through the floor but didn’t want to do anything that may shock me back to body so instead I went through the open door (confirmed: it was open) of the bed room and stood at the top of the stairs, I thought to myself “to hell with it I’m going to float down these stairs” so I held my arms out at my sides and floated quickly down to the bottom of the stairs it was so exciting, I felt a rush of adrenaline in my stomach (possible?) I went through the door and into the kitchen where I saw my sister, I told her to watch me and I pushed my hand through the wall next to the door of the spare room, this one had more of a brick feel to it but was also cold. She didn’t seem to notice me and walked into the living room and sat next to mum on the 2-seater I tried to get mums attention and it worked she looked at me but seemed to be uninterested and somewhat grumpy (normal then lol) here is what happened;
Me: Mum, watch this!
As I went to push my hand through the wall I saw something in the window it was a large humming bird carrying some sort of ball!
Me: Hey look at that!
Mum: I know it’s been there all morning
Me: Ok then… so watch this,
I pushed my hand through the wall next to our clock as I did I felt the brick then some wires, my immediate reaction was to retract my hand for fear of electrocution. As I did I looked at my mum.
Me: Did you see that?!
Mum: Yes
Me: And you don’t think that’s weird?
Mum: Not really
Me: But you can see me right?
Mum: Of course
Me: Ah I see, you’re not going to remember this conversation are you?
Mum: Yes I will
Me: Ha-ha I don’t think you will
Mum: Don’t worry I will.
She said that last sentence with sort of a sneaky smile
I turned away and noticed she was watching the TV but the TV was small and thicker nothing like our TV. I went over to it at it started to go funny I said whoops was that me? I reached around the back if the TV and tried to fix it to no avail I then spotted 2 small items on the TV stand, a 5p piece and what looked like the flight of a dart, I thought I would try and push them off the stand with my hands and it worked! They both fell of the stand and hit the floor. Sudden re-entry, cause, my arm above my head was resting awkwardly and had the pins and needles feeling in it.
I went downstairs, my sister was on the Xbox, my mum was on the laptop (a smaller TV!) both were seated where I perceived them, and my sister says she wasn’t in the kitchen at the time. I suspect mum has no recollection of the conversation although I have not had the courage to ask her. The 5p and flight were also not there. I am unsure if there are wires in the wall and there is no way to find out at this moment.
I don’t know what to make of this, on the one hand it felt completely like a genuine OBE and the recent lesson about imposing images may answer some of the questions but things just don’t add up. Current conclusion: OBE with dream related imagery, conversation was imposed by my sub conscious or if it is possible, I was communicating with her sub-c. Most likely entered dream after the conversation. Still unsure.
Here is a quote from Robert Monroe's book; Journeys Out of the Body it poses more questions.
“...Dr. Puharich, awake and aware that specific attempts to “visit” him were being made, had no conscious recollection of any such meeting. All other factors checked accurately, except for the reported “conversation”. This has happened so frequently in such instances that it became the source of much discussion. At first, it was suggested that I was fantasizing these communications. It seemed probable that in so doing, I was merely calling upon my knowledge of the visitee-—at the unconscious level-—to create an “authentic” conversation. This theory received a setback when a number of such communications brought out data known only to the second party.”
I caught myself waking up again, the vibrations were smooth at first then they disappeared, they came back and they were very strong. They got faster and smoother and I decided to separate and stay in my room. My body floated out chest first and I sat up on the bed and looked at my physical body sleeping there (very eerie), vision was very clear, my goal was to stay in the house and maybe walk through some walls as I don’t think I could take another emotional experience like the last one just yet, I would explode with excitement if I did.
I went to the wall near my wardrobe I saw the pile of clothes at the bottom of it. I put my hand on it and started to push through with a little force I felt my hand go through the wall it took much more force than expected although this is the first time I have done this and I have spent all my life not going through walls. I could feel the coldness of it, the texture of breeze blocks! (Confirmed: asked around and the wall is likely made of those gray airy breeze blocks) then for some reason my vision flipped upside down! So as I pushed the rest of body through I said to myself “fix vision” I came out through the other end and felt the wood of my sisters bed on my legs (the bed looked like my own!?) both beds are in the same place on each side of the wall it may be possible that I had that spherical vision. Next I decided to go downstairs. I thought about dropping through the floor but didn’t want to do anything that may shock me back to body so instead I went through the open door (confirmed: it was open) of the bed room and stood at the top of the stairs, I thought to myself “to hell with it I’m going to float down these stairs” so I held my arms out at my sides and floated quickly down to the bottom of the stairs it was so exciting, I felt a rush of adrenaline in my stomach (possible?) I went through the door and into the kitchen where I saw my sister, I told her to watch me and I pushed my hand through the wall next to the door of the spare room, this one had more of a brick feel to it but was also cold. She didn’t seem to notice me and walked into the living room and sat next to mum on the 2-seater I tried to get mums attention and it worked she looked at me but seemed to be uninterested and somewhat grumpy (normal then lol) here is what happened;
Me: Mum, watch this!
As I went to push my hand through the wall I saw something in the window it was a large humming bird carrying some sort of ball!
Me: Hey look at that!
Mum: I know it’s been there all morning
Me: Ok then… so watch this,
I pushed my hand through the wall next to our clock as I did I felt the brick then some wires, my immediate reaction was to retract my hand for fear of electrocution. As I did I looked at my mum.
Me: Did you see that?!
Mum: Yes
Me: And you don’t think that’s weird?
Mum: Not really
Me: But you can see me right?
Mum: Of course
Me: Ah I see, you’re not going to remember this conversation are you?
Mum: Yes I will
Me: Ha-ha I don’t think you will
Mum: Don’t worry I will.
She said that last sentence with sort of a sneaky smile
I turned away and noticed she was watching the TV but the TV was small and thicker nothing like our TV. I went over to it at it started to go funny I said whoops was that me? I reached around the back if the TV and tried to fix it to no avail I then spotted 2 small items on the TV stand, a 5p piece and what looked like the flight of a dart, I thought I would try and push them off the stand with my hands and it worked! They both fell of the stand and hit the floor. Sudden re-entry, cause, my arm above my head was resting awkwardly and had the pins and needles feeling in it.
I went downstairs, my sister was on the Xbox, my mum was on the laptop (a smaller TV!) both were seated where I perceived them, and my sister says she wasn’t in the kitchen at the time. I suspect mum has no recollection of the conversation although I have not had the courage to ask her. The 5p and flight were also not there. I am unsure if there are wires in the wall and there is no way to find out at this moment.
I don’t know what to make of this, on the one hand it felt completely like a genuine OBE and the recent lesson about imposing images may answer some of the questions but things just don’t add up. Current conclusion: OBE with dream related imagery, conversation was imposed by my sub conscious or if it is possible, I was communicating with her sub-c. Most likely entered dream after the conversation. Still unsure.
Here is a quote from Robert Monroe's book; Journeys Out of the Body it poses more questions.
“...Dr. Puharich, awake and aware that specific attempts to “visit” him were being made, had no conscious recollection of any such meeting. All other factors checked accurately, except for the reported “conversation”. This has happened so frequently in such instances that it became the source of much discussion. At first, it was suggested that I was fantasizing these communications. It seemed probable that in so doing, I was merely calling upon my knowledge of the visitee-—at the unconscious level-—to create an “authentic” conversation. This theory received a setback when a number of such communications brought out data known only to the second party.”
The first major experience
11/07/2009
I decided not to practice last night as I was feeling way too tired, but this morning something amazing happened, first I was in a dream a young women stood before me, she was beautiful, what I imagined as my perfect girl. She walks away from me and speaks to another man, everything about her changes, she changes to his perfect women, it seems we are superimposing our own image of perfection onto this being, I begin to wake for some reason I try to make her appear next to me but obviously it doesn't work.
I become more awake and then the vibrations sweep over me. I decided I would have a go at controlling them I concentrated the energy on my spine and said to myself “I should have a goal, or destination”. First I thought that I had better stay in my room for the time-being (due to lack of experience). Then a voice said "I've always wanted to visit Paris" a surge of excitement rushed through me i said to myself (or to the voice) "I've always wanted to visit Egypt, that's it I WANT TO VISIT EGYPT!!" I could not control the urge. Next I saw a rushing of landscape and then desert sand I slowed and passed 2 men and a camel which was carrying something on it sides, it was morning there, (i later checked the time it would have been 9:30am in Egypt)
I could hear music, flutes and spheres (like metamusic) it is very soothing, I can feel the sand in my feet I run around in excitement screaming “I’M IN EGYPT!!!” feeling very proud of myself. I can see three big pyramids in the distance but there is something weird about my vision when I look around I can see a red banner in my vision saying call now as if it were a holiday commercial ha-ha!
I think a stray thought had me and next I found myself shooting through the stars I am at a red planet it has rings it looks like the wallpaper I have on my laptop. I look around I can still hear the relaxing music I am holding a blanket! I have no idea why, I keep hold of it and look around. Tears are running down my face as i type this the view of being in space, all my childhood dreams have come true. I snap out of my awe a little and decide to experiment, I see a distant star, it must be at least a few light years away ) I stretch towards it and I’m there in an instant, suddenly I’m spinning through space it’s very fun, It was like releasing a rubber band you have stretched over your thumb but instead of stopping at the other end of the band it comes off your thumb and spins in the air, I start to worry a little.
I think the word “home” I stop spinning but then I shoot off in the opposite (what i sensed) direction and I am heading towards another galaxy it has a weird geometric shape not like anything our scientists have seen. then I think well this isn’t working, I see a large symbol/shape in some bright creamy clouds (I've drawn it) I start to worry that I might be nearing the edge of the universe (possible?) A thought comes to me; “infallible return signal” so I think about moving my fingers on my right hand I stop (I turn?) I see what looks like our galaxy I shoot towards one arm of it (automatically) there is a flash of light and I am back in my body. I sit up, tears are running down my face in excitement and awe. I come downstairs to type these notes and still more tears of awe come, I send out a feeling of gratitude (a very big one) to my higher self and any being that helped in this experience.
Now I realize what the blanket was!! My childhood comfort blanket! Maybe this was the reason I was not so panicked and frightened, the soothing music is something I may have thought of to calm me down but i would have never thought of the blanket. and what's with the commercial banner in Egypt? Somehow I feel it's connected to the dream I had beforehand. maybe it's a lesson, you superimpose your own reality?"
Well that's about it, I hope it didn't bore you too much Wink This was the first time I had gone anywhere further than a few streets away. I learned a lot of things from this experience, among other things;
1. The urge to explore (beyond what I think is my comfortable limit) is VERY strong,
2. I may be superimposing my own images onto things (like the girl in the dream)
3. I need to be able to control my thoughts the stray thought of my screen saver picture shot me to a similar looking planet not even in our galaxy!
4. Distance really doesn’t matter (exist?)
5. Even if you’re lost and spinning through space the ‘infallible return signal’ works very well
6. I can remain fairly calm even when I am possibly thousands of light years away and use logic and reason to solve problems rather than panic blindly.
I decided not to practice last night as I was feeling way too tired, but this morning something amazing happened, first I was in a dream a young women stood before me, she was beautiful, what I imagined as my perfect girl. She walks away from me and speaks to another man, everything about her changes, she changes to his perfect women, it seems we are superimposing our own image of perfection onto this being, I begin to wake for some reason I try to make her appear next to me but obviously it doesn't work.
I become more awake and then the vibrations sweep over me. I decided I would have a go at controlling them I concentrated the energy on my spine and said to myself “I should have a goal, or destination”. First I thought that I had better stay in my room for the time-being (due to lack of experience). Then a voice said "I've always wanted to visit Paris" a surge of excitement rushed through me i said to myself (or to the voice) "I've always wanted to visit Egypt, that's it I WANT TO VISIT EGYPT!!" I could not control the urge. Next I saw a rushing of landscape and then desert sand I slowed and passed 2 men and a camel which was carrying something on it sides, it was morning there, (i later checked the time it would have been 9:30am in Egypt)
I could hear music, flutes and spheres (like metamusic) it is very soothing, I can feel the sand in my feet I run around in excitement screaming “I’M IN EGYPT!!!” feeling very proud of myself. I can see three big pyramids in the distance but there is something weird about my vision when I look around I can see a red banner in my vision saying call now as if it were a holiday commercial ha-ha!
I think a stray thought had me and next I found myself shooting through the stars I am at a red planet it has rings it looks like the wallpaper I have on my laptop. I look around I can still hear the relaxing music I am holding a blanket! I have no idea why, I keep hold of it and look around. Tears are running down my face as i type this the view of being in space, all my childhood dreams have come true. I snap out of my awe a little and decide to experiment, I see a distant star, it must be at least a few light years away ) I stretch towards it and I’m there in an instant, suddenly I’m spinning through space it’s very fun, It was like releasing a rubber band you have stretched over your thumb but instead of stopping at the other end of the band it comes off your thumb and spins in the air, I start to worry a little.
I think the word “home” I stop spinning but then I shoot off in the opposite (what i sensed) direction and I am heading towards another galaxy it has a weird geometric shape not like anything our scientists have seen. then I think well this isn’t working, I see a large symbol/shape in some bright creamy clouds (I've drawn it) I start to worry that I might be nearing the edge of the universe (possible?) A thought comes to me; “infallible return signal” so I think about moving my fingers on my right hand I stop (I turn?) I see what looks like our galaxy I shoot towards one arm of it (automatically) there is a flash of light and I am back in my body. I sit up, tears are running down my face in excitement and awe. I come downstairs to type these notes and still more tears of awe come, I send out a feeling of gratitude (a very big one) to my higher self and any being that helped in this experience.
Now I realize what the blanket was!! My childhood comfort blanket! Maybe this was the reason I was not so panicked and frightened, the soothing music is something I may have thought of to calm me down but i would have never thought of the blanket. and what's with the commercial banner in Egypt? Somehow I feel it's connected to the dream I had beforehand. maybe it's a lesson, you superimpose your own reality?"
Well that's about it, I hope it didn't bore you too much Wink This was the first time I had gone anywhere further than a few streets away. I learned a lot of things from this experience, among other things;
1. The urge to explore (beyond what I think is my comfortable limit) is VERY strong,
2. I may be superimposing my own images onto things (like the girl in the dream)
3. I need to be able to control my thoughts the stray thought of my screen saver picture shot me to a similar looking planet not even in our galaxy!
4. Distance really doesn’t matter (exist?)
5. Even if you’re lost and spinning through space the ‘infallible return signal’ works very well
6. I can remain fairly calm even when I am possibly thousands of light years away and use logic and reason to solve problems rather than panic blindly.
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